First, I ask for your forgiveness for being absent the last couple of weeks after saying that I was going to start something new and exciting. It IS coming this coming Wednesday!
Next, a confession: I fell into a pit! My specific pit is a bout of depression. Not the deep, clinical kind but more like the sad, bluesy sort. It’s not overtly noticeable to anyone. It just IS.
It’s not something I ever expect will happen. I was sailing right along with all the excitement and enthusiasm that a new year and refreshed goals often bring. And then it happened! Facebook did one of those “memory” things. You know the ones I mean; a photo posted a year or more before. The funny thing is that it was a plate of food-specifically, hospital food when I was out in Arizona dealing with my son John’s illness. That made me miss him and brought back the highs and lows and the ultimate ache of having to let him go…and OOF, into the pit I tumbled!
Tomorrow would have been John’s 46th birthday. He’s been gone 3 years now, and his brother Eric followed him a year later. Eric and John were extremely close and when we talk about one, we talk about the other. We say that Eric missed John so much he couldn’t live without him-and so he went to see John. As painful as it is, it also brings a bit of a comfort to me, also. And so does knowing that I will see them again someday.
If you’d like to read more about that particular journey you can find them using the the blog archives beginning September 2012 through January 2013. In fact, feel free to read ’em all. I’d love to hear your thoughts and hope you’ll share your own experiences.
Other things going on… I lived through Blizzard of 2016! Here in northern New Jersey we got just over two feet of snow and barely a week later the majority of it is gone and we’re back to our winter heat wave. I’ve also had that achey, sneezy, stuffy thing and it gave me time to reflect on so much. I’ve read through the entire book of Genesis (beginnings!) and now into Exodus and God has reminded me over and over that even when things seem dark and dreary and just plain UGH-He is right there with me. He knows my pain, after all He lost a son too. Also, next week I’m going to be a year older! And yes, God has reminded me that if He can put Moses to good use at 80, 63 is a breeze!
OK, so, now that you know why I’ve been absent, I hope you’ll be sure to check back. I’m working on getting a subscriber list and/or newsletter for you to get regular updates here on the blog as well as Abiding Ways as a whole. In the meantime I hope you’ll follow me on Twitter (@DonnaColeNJ )Thanks to all who have been praying with me and for me. God did it once again… Psalms 40:2-3